Started Straterra and honestly I could cry.

This is what I needed for many years. Adderall and Ritalin just made me anxious and jittery. I can now focus on cleaning up the mess that is my life and get to programming as hard as it is. Been binging relearning C++ as well as refreshing my knowledge of data structures and APIs this past week. But I'm also just so overcome with grief that this couldn't have happened earlier and that in my traumatised stupor (refer to my previous post here) I did so much dumb shit that wasn't programming and feel I wasted my time in college just barely getting by.

Yeah I know I shouldn't compare myself to others and that the past is the past but still... just feel like I woke up from a nightmare, that's all.