I am really confused on whether I have Aphantasia or not.
I very recently learned about Aphantasia and am really not sure if I have Aphantasia or not.
Lets start with the simple Apple Test. When I close my eyes and try to imagine an Apple, family member's faces, etc then I cannot see anything. It is completely blank.
But when I try to imagine a more complex scene then things change. For example: I tried testing by starting a action movie that I have never seen from middle and tried imagining what was happening based on sound alone.
In this case, there was a fighting scene and while I couldn't exactly "see" the scene, I could "imagine" what the scene was like. Based on sounds I could imagine each kicks and punches. I could imagine (roughly)how many characters were fighting in the scene and I could imagine if the characters were bleeding or not. I guess rather than "seeing" the scene as a whole I could "see" each event indivisually one after another in extremely fast speed.
The best way to explain is that my mind was trying to paint the scene but without any brushes or colors. Almost as if I was running my fingers in air trying to draw something but since I was trying to draw in air nothing was actually being drawn.
And at this point I don't really know if I am visualizing the image or not. Like it feels like I am visualizing the image in my mind but at the same time I am not.