How do I take the edge off?

I'm addicted to something different to drugs and some days it's so damn difficult. It's been a long journey to get to where I am now and I feel myself slipping again.

I can't stop thinking about ket - I've only done it done it before but the feeling of not being me is so appealing to me. I don't have drugs even in this country. (Wales and I'm from England. I know it's not far but I don't have a plug).

I don't have a bath or meditate like everyone says. Please help me