Codependent relationships

It seems I don't know how to enter into any relationship other than codependent, I realized this quite recently and will try to describe my train of thought, because at the same time I'm trying to find my enneagram.

People don't really like me, and if someone shows interest in me, it gives me hope that everything will change. After that, I can't let go of this person and everything that happens. I want to repeat all the happy moments, press this button constantly, drink the “relationship” to the last drop until I feel bad myself.

Everything would be fine, but it's impossible. Other people have their own lives, hobbies and other people in general, they don't always have a good mood, they can't give me as much as I want. But it seems my desire is much stronger than this understanding or morality. I will demand attention by any means. Even when a person is upset because of external reasons, I will take it personally that all good things are falling apart, and I can't do anything about it.

I will be terribly annoyed when a person is busy with something else and interesting for himself. I could also do something interesting, but I am tormented by the feeling that if I switch to something else, then the person will be offended that I am preventing him from doing the same and will leave. I can't let that happen, I always need to “hold his tail” so that he doesn't leave.

As a result, I mostly get the irritation of another person from not letting him relax and do something voluntarily. Then I get offended and decide that I need to switch to something more interesting and exciting for myself. Like you felt loved by me, and you didn't give me love, and now I don't need you anymore, I replaced you.

In general, I thought I was 4 sx, but it seems there are more 6 or 9 in this ... What do you think?