Everyone tells me GERD is neurological (23F)

Everyone tells me it’s neurological, I’m gonna go crazy soon

I’m so tired. I’ve dealt with GERD for over two years. None of the meds helped. All the doctors I’ve been to in this country just brush it off and tell me it’s neurological and I need to deal with it.

I’ve ruined my life with antidepressants because of these doctors. I messed up my brain chemistry to the point I had worse anxiety and severe OCD for months. I still get scared about going outside or doing simple things. I’m ruining everything with my anxiety, and guess what? My GERD never went away.

Right now, daily, I deal with such severe nausea I think I want to throw up. I developed an eating disorder. I can’t eat half of the things. My esophagus is constantly inflamed and I can’t swallow food properly. I don’t even eat food outside in public because I’m scared I’ll choke to death every single day. I can’t drink alcohol at all anymore, when it used to be my favorite thing 2 years ago.

I talked to my parents about getting me help again and trying. They refuse to, telling me to get over this problem on my own because it’s psychological. I can’t do this anymore.