How are you?

Been just over 5 months for me. I'm trying to navigate my new life without my mom. I miss her and tell her outloud daily. Nights are still difficult. I can't say it's gotten easier, it hasn't lost the weight, but I've gotten used to the heft. The guilt and regret hang over me consistently. The grief has become something I carry in every sigh I let out. Every so often I remember i won't ever hear her voice again, yet I still expect her to call.

I'm at a very very messy point in my life because of her loss, and will probably feel lost for a long time.

I'm sorry for everyones heartache.