homesick

I just moved into a new apartment and I’m living alone for the first time ever. I have been preparing and so excited for this move for over a year now and was elated to find out I’d been approved for an apartment. During the whole packing and moving process I didn’t feel any anxiety I was secure in my choice and it felt right. Tonight is my fourth night here and it’s all hitting me. I’m alone. I was excited to finally be alone and have my own space and now I don’t know. My family helped me move and drove the 16+ hours with me to manage all my things. I never felt exceptionally close to them as we’ve had many disagreements and fights but they still support me so I respect them but we definitely aren’t always tight knit family. I have not stopped crying since 4:55 am today. I am so sad and scared without them. I know I need time to adjust but I feel physically sick. Like there’s a pit in my stomach and I need to vomit but can’t. I don’t want to sleep but need to. I want to be here but I wish I was home. I just need advice or ways to get over this. It feels like I made the wrong choice even though I was so excited to make this move. How long until I settle in. I know it’s too early to cave and go home as I’m here for multiple reasons and opportunities. But when do I make that decision if needed. I don’t want to feel constantly sick and depressed. I have worked hard to not be depressed and to get to the point living alone was manageable. I feel like everything has gone out the window and I’m lost.