It's BRUTAL to see people my age with accomplishments and me having NOTHING

I'm 23, the amount of people that age or younger with relatively successful YouTube channels is immense, I've never managed to maintain a channel, I've never managed to do anything, everything failed.

• I see younger girls on chaturbate or hardcore pornography, being admired by millions, it's fucked up knowing that I've never even held one's hand, just touching one would change my self-esteem, but no, this is too much for me.

• Seeing 13-year-olds drawing and painting better than me.

• 18-year-olds who are taller, prettier and have deeper voices.

• Teenage couples at the mall.

While I beg my mother for money to buy wine and when I get home I jerk off to hentai and play Minecraft.

The most views I get is when I post here, I'm nobody, I'm a social nobody, I can't compete because of genetic inferiority.