Fuck this noise, I’m going on Zoloft.

Diagnosed PMDD. Been battling this since 38 years old. Currently 45. I’ve destroyed relationships. Destroyed my reputation. Going into hiding every month. Half of my life goes up in smoke. A few days after ovulation and it was like someone poisoned me. Things that I could stomach made me suicidal. This feeling of i am my fucking mother scares the shit out of me. I can’t do this anymore. I try to stay away from sugar as best I can’t. I don’t drink. Have a coffee once or twice a month tops!!! Exercise 4x a week. All those things make me feel great … when I’m not in luteal.

EDIT: for those who have taken it, how long did it take for it to kick in?

[UPDATE]: So I look it at 12noon, it’s 3:17 and I’ve had explosive diarrhea the past hour and I’m completely exhausted. Does this get better or should I jump ship?

[2-days LATER UPDATE]: Because the first day I got the shits, I decided to take a day off. Then Early this morning I was feeling crappy (1 week away from period) and I was staying home today so I took another Zoloft, just to see. I have zero fatigue or diarrhea. And I felt good.

I think I’m gonna get a prescription and take it during luteal just to see how it goes.