Tarot/spirituality and ocd

I got a tarot reading that triggered me and scared me to my core today. I had always been into tarot, and up until recently (I started having rocd symptoms in the past year) I never had to worry about it being a cause for stress. It was mostly just something fun to learn about, like astrology or MBTI etc. Today I was packing up some stuff in my apartment because I am moving soon, and I found my tarot deck. I haven’t done a reading in a long time, and of course my brain went immediately to my relationship because that’s where my brain is at 24/7 these days. I asked if I needed to break up with my partner or if my Relationship was wrong or if my Partner is deceiving me etc. I pulled the lovers in reverse card. Out of all the cards I could have pulled. And now although my relationship was going relatively good besides my fears and the occasional arguments we get in, I am a mess of doubt and anger and grief and anxiety and I can’t seems to shake it. Has anyone dealt with this before? Do you have any advice? I’m going a little nuts