Starting to lose empathy for women

I want to vent about this. And yall are free to downvote me or leave a comment critisizing me because i know its not good to feel like i am. But i really need to say it. I hate male-centered women and i cant help but feel like i lose respect and emphaty for them.

And i feel like the least male-centered a woman is, the more respect and emphaty i have for her. So i dont identify as a feminist or a radfem because im even too extremist for them.

Being like i am is being everyday triggered, disgusted and dissapointed by womens actions and how they are. I was always dissapointed by females, its something i always felt since kid. Im gonna talk about my experience as a lesbian. Since i was a little girl i used to think of women as beautiful, kind and ethereal but through the years i realized that most women were attracted to men and most women were gonna be with men. And i always felt disgusted by toxic hetero dynamics and how straight sex is performed, i find it super degrading and dehumanizing for women. And men talk about the women they have sex with in such a shaming and degrading way too. So the sum of all of this made me dissapointed in women. And i always deluded myself thinking a demographic of women is better than another but i realized is not. When i saw that het/bi women were male-centered i thought "well, im sure lesbians are better" but it wasnt true, a lot of lesbians are pick mes and male centered still. Which made me realize i cant trust anybody. I learned that the solidarity i can have with a woman does not depend on her sexuality but in how male centered she is.

I lose empathy when a woman is into bdsm or kinks. I lose empathy when a woman stan males. I lose empathy when a "lesbian" couple post videos on tiktok kissing in front of men and wanting male attention. I lose empathy when i know there are conservative lesbians. I lose empathy with gender traitors that engage in kink with men and degrade other women as a "kink". I lose empathy with women that lie about being a lesbian and end up hurting a real lesbian in the process (95% of times its for a man). I lose empathy when i see women expressing their attraction to men in ways i interpret as degrading, like when they say they want to do a bj or have piv. I lose empathy when i see radfems still being male-centered and forget about their values for a moid. I lose empathy when i see supposed lesbians being obsessed with real or fictional males, and say on internet they want to have sex with said males. I lose all kind of empathy with class traitors, women who are right wingers and conservatives. I lose empathy with women that defend islam. I lose empathy with women who still thirst for men who are known abusers and rapists. I lose empathy with lesbophobic women. I lose empathy with lesbians that are retarded and defend men. I lose empathy with "radfems" that knowing all the evil things men do or after saying that all men are pervs/rapists, they still horny post about some moid or have bfs/husbands.

This is how i feel and its so isolating and depressing that i cannot connect with any woman. I hope somebody reads this and can relate to me but it would be hard.