Helpppp

I’m so scared. I’ve been feeling gross all day and on my way home from work I literally felt so n* and I thought it was about to happen and I pulled over. It didn’t happen so I went home but I’m still feeling so panicked and off and I can’t tell if I feel off because of the anxiety or if it’s gonna happen. I don’t remember what it feels like to be s* it hasn’t happened in 17 years and I’m so scared