Has been consciousness laughing at me all this time? Or this is another ego trick?

Hope only those who experienced similar shifts answer this.

Through deep suffering and pain that turned like intolerable, a thought popped up like aren't you fed-up with all this? Those triggering persons ... those triggering situations .. this even triggered self of you .. even started to visualize it all like collapsing to a snow like image which I felt then sudden relief and mind halt .. then things started playing back to see what was going on ... how things can be happening from different perspective!

I then couldn't see something other than that there's no unconscious people ...it is all consciousness sending me those so- called unconscious people ..but they all know the game ...it's only me who is trying to take it seriously while everyone around know the game ...I don't know how to articulate it ... so I will stop at this ..hoping that consciousness reply to me through its other actors 😁 ...

My other question .. why will some reply and reveal as real consciousness while others will just look at this and feel it like nonsense?

What is this phase in your opinion? Just not sure to where this gonna lead ... I doubt this is all!

So expect more more followup questions ...