Did anyone here get pregnant with a second?

I don’t know if this is a pro choice sub so I am prepared for downvotes but.. I just found out I’m pregnant with my second. I have an 18 month old and I have been very adamant about being one and done from the start, for a plethora of reasons. But now that I’m pregnant I’m just like.. so overwhelmed.

Please be nice. I understand I should’ve been more careful but here I am now.

I just want to know if there’s anyone that went through terminating a pregnancy after having one and what brought them to that decision.. how they feel about it, etc. I don’t know what I’m looking for. I haven’t even told my husband because I know he’s always wanted a second. I just need some perspective. I’m torn. I feel so alone.

EDIT: I just want to thank everyone who commented in support. Thank you for being open and honest in sharing your experiences, as well as reminding me that I am not alone. I couldn’t possibly have imagined the ambivalence and fear that came with this situation. I always thought it would be an obvious termination without any hesitation. It’s good to hear varying feelings and experiences, for I am reminded that there isn’t one normal way to feel in this circumstance, or any really. Thank you so much for letting me know that things will be okay no matter what. This is an uplifting group💕