Anyone else feel frustrated with the shock of people when you come out?

i came out recently to my mom as trans. i’m 25 now and she was just super surprised and was pretty quick to say she didn’t “see any signs” when i was growing up

she is accepting and i’m trying to be thankful for that, but like, she just seems so oblivious. there were definitely signs but she clearly didn’t know what to look for because she just doesn’t know much at all about being trans -_-

it just makes me think like, damn, sorry i didn’t come out of the womb holding a banner that said “I’M A GIRL”. it’s hard as a kid to understand those feelings and to know that literally everyone around you who thinks of you and addresses you as a boy is wrong. the repression was set in concrete so fucking early

so like, i’m just feeling guilty because i know so many people have a way harder time with this journey, but i’m still just caught up on this and it’s digging at me